I forgot about me

I have ended my marriage, moved house all in the space of a few weeks. I am now lost. Somewhere amongst struggling to come up for air over the last 5 years I forgot about me……

Who am I? Who was I? Who do I want to become?

I am a mother of three divine little girls. I am a strong woman who is carrying her family with little finances and not much support. I am seeking for that place to call home. I am sad, I am angry, I am lonely. I am constantly wondering where I should be going and what I should be doing. I am scared I can’t survive on my own. I am afraid I will fail. I am fragile. I am frightened.

I need a plan. I need something to work toward. I need to love myself. I need to rediscover who I am. I need to let go and let myself be. I need to reconnect with my essence and my spirituality. I need to restore my faith in myself. I need to feel strong again. I need to love me.

Small bite sized chunks. One foot in front of the other. One day at a time. Lots of love and cuddles. Lots of encouragement and lots of positive reinforcement.

Today I gift myself with time to sit and write down a plan.

Today I give some time to myself.

I believe I can succeed and I believe I can do this. I love and approve of myself.

Sticking to a plan……

I need to make a change in the way I approach tasks that I set for myself.

I am easily distracted (thanks facebook, Hotmail, pintrest and every other excuse I can use to help me from achieving and sticking to my goals). I start out with so much enthusiasm and it very quickly fizzles out and I make excuses or life happens and I end up throwing my hands in the air and reverting back to the comfort of boredom and bad habits.

I WANT TO CHANGE! I NEED TO CHANGE! I AM WILLING TO CHANGE! So why do I consistently set myself up to fail? Why do I feel like I am not good enough or strong enough or worthy enough of success?

I would love to surprise myself and do something that completely blows me away and changes how I view and treat myself.

Start small is the answer. One small task to build my confidence at a time.

Today I will start. I would love to have toned arms and a firmer chest again so my challenge is I want to be able to do push ups. So I challenge myself to do 5 push ups every day for a week…….

Good Luck Me!!